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I can’t wait for the upcoming new year. There are so many things that I would love to have done this new year and I am making good progress thus far. I have no idea what is in store for me but I look forward to certain guesses made a very old wolf.

In 2007, I had the opportunity to participate in a photo walk with some new friends in the area around Central Market. It was almost noon as I splintered a way from the group and was more interested in buying trinkets and having my portrait drawn than taking pictures.

Somewhere in the middle of these rows of well organized aluminum booths was this short queue of women with an elderly lady right at back.
Somehow I was compelled to return an hour later and with the queue of five gone, I asked if I could have my fortune read. An old man sat me down, asked me to be patient and looked at my face like a wolf that was looking for his next meal. I am a sceptic. I am skeptical about everything that defies my reason and a feeling of cynicism was growing. I was wondering why I was wasting my time.

He laid open a tarot deck and asked me to pull a number of cards. He then asked me birthdate. He then made 5 predictions.

Prediction 1 : My then girlfriend was cheating on me. I had great love for her and that we had been together a very long time but she had once before cheated and while she still loved me, she would do so again in the future if we were together. He tapped on the third card and he said that I would make a decision to leave her a year from then and the next 2 years would be filled with a lot of unhappiness at what could have been.

Prediction 2 : I was / would already have persistent dreams of this lady speaking softly in my ear. He said that she would tell me all that I needed to know and I should trust my heart in doing all things.

Prediction 3 : I would struggle to find my calling in life until late 2009 and early 2010. By winter was over I would know what I wanted in life and I would seek it a passion. It would not be related to my job he said. I would also migrate specifically to to the east because a family member would want me there. I remember asking if my plans for working in the UK were going to pan out and he looked at me again, half a minute went past in the most dramatic of fashion, and said no.

Prediction 4 : I would find the love of my life after the lunar new year in 2010. She would be kind and loving and the mother of my children. He said her grounding will hold both our families together.

I know that silly little predictions are nothing more than best guesses. He however was right about the first prediction and second in such detail that I am beginning to doubt my disbelief. I have since late 2006 had dreams of a tanned lady with wavy hair whispering in my ear. I have tried journaling and everything else but I have yet to understand her. AlI I think I hear is mumbles. For a good year I thought I was losing my mind.
She did cheat on me. I read an incoming message while she was in the dressing room.
I wait to see all that comes my way after this lunar new year which so happens to mark the end of winter.
I know I said five predictions. I still find it hard to talk about the fifth.